I’m thinking about two things right now (well, more than two, but these two relate to this blog, so.)
I’m thinking about the end of my current List and the start of my next one. I’m thinking that, before 31, I’d like to get lost somewhere. In another country. Inside my heart. Inside my head. Although, in my 20s, I’d say I spent a lot of time feeling lost inside my head – too many thoughts to count, too many anxious moments to remember. This time, if I decide to get lost in there – inside my thoughts and deep within my heart – I know I’ll be bringing a little more ‘know-how’ with me. An imaginary map on which I’ve been the exclusive cartographer. Each ‘X’ is a place I’ve been emotionally, mentally and spiritually. This time, I’ll choose to go back there or just take another road because it’ll feel familiar to me. That’s what I (you) can look forward to with each passing year; every birthday.
Your map. becomes. more. accurate.
All I can really hope for is the road in my 30s is a little less bumpy in certain spots and a lot more scenic. With magnolia trees.
What ‘Xs’ are on your map for the year ahead?
You’re so right – the map does become more accurate, year by year, but also with every X, I think. And ou navigational skills improve no end.
You know though, my map for the year ahead has a whole lot of gaps and uncertainty in it, and I’m actually quite excited about that. I have no real idea where I’ll be or what I’ll be doing this time next year, and for the first time in my life, the complete lack of this kind of knowledge feels liberating and empowering rather than – AAAGH – terrifying!
Shall look forward to following you and seeing where your map takes you, too.
I constantly wish for less bumps every birthday. Let me know when you figure out how to make that happen.