The last little while, I’ve been having some good ideas. What’s makes them good? They get me motivated to make some important changes and I’m able to fill pages and pages in my notebook with more ideas that build around that one central idea. I get that feeling, deep down, that if I don’t write down my idea, I’ll explode… implode?… whatever.
The point is, the idea gets my juices flowing, and I love that.
The problem is this: I’ve been doing this for months now, and even though I’m excited about this handful of ideas that could potentially change my life’s direction, make me happier, more productive (I’m such an addict for productivity!), and even change my financial future, I stall.
That feeling of stalling is what throws me into sadness, frustration and sometimes even anger (fuck! as I throw my notebook at the wall). But I know I’m not the only one who experiences this regularly, which is why I’m completely comfortable mentioning that these feelings have been a very real experience in my life lately.
I want change. I’ve never been the kind of person who hooks into just one idea or thought or emotion, although I admire people who do. I want to go from being an idea-starter to an idea-closer. I want this so much that I’ve decided to add it to my List, which scares me, because I don’t want to necessarily give this idea a false deadline and push it out before it’s ready (we’ll call this premature labor.)
I’ve been waiting to birth that one. big. idea that I believe in so much, it will almost destroy me not to see it through to fruition. I want that feeling so badly.
This ever happened to you, dear readers? I would love to know!
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I am going through the same phase right now. I am feeling totally useless. I have been thinking and thinking but havent settled on something yet. I hope i find a direction soon you know…other wise i am gonna go nuts for sure.
I hear you! I’ve decided to cover this topic more closely in the coming weeks, so stay tuned. I’ve received some great *private* feedback via email and from friends on Facebook about this post.
Yes! I’ve been feeling like this too. The past 6 months or so I’ve been full of ideas & very inspired. This is good because prior to this I was feeling very uninspired & stagnant. I write everything down in my journal/idea book too. There are a lot of things that I want to do…NEED to do…but its almost like I am afraid to take the plunge. So, what I’m trying to do is just break these big things into smaller projects and try and do something that helps me work towards those goals everyday. I also wrote a letter to myself, which helped me put into perspective what I want to get done by the end of the year.
But yeah, “fear” is a big one. I need to get over that…
Good Luck with everything!! xo
Wouldn’t this make the perfect discussion over coffee? Yes, I think so.